What if I Told You Anxiety is a By-Product of Self-Sufficiency?

Is your independence represented in your emotions?

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I had a friend who tried to get me to see the insight in some verses from Matthew 6 because I was struggling financially at the time and all I did was worry in between prayers. Precisely, those verses were Matthew 6 vs 25-34. I’ll put a link here since the verses are too many to paste here: Matthew 6 vs 25-34 (AMP).

As a realist, I tried to think out all the possible avenues from which money could spring forth. All of them were dry, void. I had to refocus on God since there was no other person standing with me in that darkness.

What my friend told me at the time was that I shouldn’t worry about the things over which I have no control. Those are the very things that I shouldn’t even attempt to think through; those are the things that I should commit to God ab initio. So I turned to prayer. But I found myself caving in under the pressure of physical demands for money that I didn’t have. I kept circling back to ground zero. It became a depressing cycle.

Although I didn’t read between the lines of the verses preceding 33 and didn’t get this insight at the time, I had to learn to look to just God since there was no one else. I told myself God wasn’t sleeping. That He saw how messy things were and all the threats facing me. Some way, somehow, He came through just *in* time.

Now, the insight I’m getting from all the verses here is that first and foremost, we need to REMEMBER that God created everything before man; He knew that every creation of His must be fed and nourished somehow. He made provisions for every single living thing He created, including man.

Since God put everything else in place before setting man as Lord over those other creatures and He didn’t starve those creatures, He won’t let us starve. Also, remember that God made provision for every single creature in the biological food chain.

God essentially set a table before us (Psa. 23 vs 5); our cups are running over; our heads are anointed with oil. Verse 33 of the Matthew 6 talks about everything else falling in place on the condition that we seek God FIRST. God sets the table before you come to Him. He knows you are coming. But He’s waiting for you to come to Him first, instead of trying to find the table in the darkness on your own. The light to your path is on that table you’re trying to find on your own. However, just like man was yet to come alive until God breathed into him, the candlelight on that table will not be lit until God lights it up so that you can use it to find your way to the table from His feet.

There is abundance on that table. Whether we choose to go to the table and sit — first having turned to God in total surrender and subjecting ourselves to total reliance on Him — or we stay away and say we don’t need Him or His provision — because, hey, we know the ropes and all about being independent and enterprising — is now left to us.

God has already made the provision. You either humbly approach the throne of grace and faithfully get on the path to that table or you can keep bothering about how you’re going to feed past today. Confident peace in an omniscient and omnipotent God or anxiety in your own shortsighted abilities, which one?

Author: Manuella

There's an eternity worth of things to say, but to keep it short, I'm a very deep individual, an avid reader and student of humans and the things around us that we interact with. If you ask me, everything has the capacity to be the topic of a deep discussion, including toilet paper. In a discussion, I'd be that person that gets everyone (including the one who's making the most noise) to go "oooooooohh!!" My thoughts spark elements in people's brains. I love imparting knowledge and I kind of have an issue with conveniently unenlightened people, who like to voice their every opinion. I love the spiritual stuff!! God is too awesome for words. There's always something to blow my mind each time I plug in. God is so deep, it's ceaselessly fascinating for me. You should totally visit the spiritual part of my mind. It's indescribable. Insane adrenaline flowing in there!

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